Our weekdays are good but our weekends are heaven. I am lucky and I know it. Life is one very big menagerie of choices which shape our daily routines. Decisions made in seconds; consequences that last years. Let's buy a house. Let's have a baby. Let's have another baby. All decisions I've made in my life and it has turned out very well for me, but it really boggles my mind to think about. I mean really think about.
Meeting Kenny almost never happened and that was a pretty big and important few minutes of my life. And what if it hadn't happened? I would be living under a bridge in a box right now. Okay, maybe not, but I certainly wouldn't be where I am and that's the only place that I want to be.
I have often heard people saying they are afraid of the future and miss the past. I must have been born with something connected wrong because I am ecstatic about the future and the past is like an old worn-out record that maybe I once loved, but now I can't figure out why. I don't wanna be where I've already been. I don't want to live where I've lived or be an age that I've already grown out of. Honest as honest can be, I can't wait to be an old lady because old ladies who carry flasks and wear muu muu's are hilarious. And I will be an old lady. I hope. This is why I quit smoking and started running and I don't drink so much anymore. I want to still be "all there in the head" when I'm ninety. What's unfortunate is that Kenny still smokes like a chimney and never exercises. I have tried everything but it's got to be his decision. Threatening to put firecrackers in his cigarettes and promising to marry somebody that doesn't smoke one week after he dies have done nothing in my favor. In fact, he's been searching for the firecrackers ever since so that he can light them off (Kenny turns into a wide-eyed, very excited little kid on Independence Day) and he wants to know who I have in mind to marry so he can beat them up.
To sum things up (as if this was an orderly story with an actual point), my best words of wisdom for today are: Feeling good feels good. I hope your life's split-second decisons give you as much bliss as mine have.
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