The weather brings me down; the kids pull me up.

Yesterday's glum weather put me in an equally glum mood.  I did way too much thinking and a lot of crying and feeling sorry for myself.  I guess this is grief.  But I've gotta dive right into it because I'm pretty sure there's no way around it.  I also know that I could just put it in my pocket for another rainy day, but why?  I prefer to deal with this now instead of stumbling upon it later and falling into an abyss of depression.  So that's that. 

When I picked the kids up from the bus stop, they could tell that I'd been crying (despite the big, fake smile I put on).  They're so good at responding to my moods.  They were quiet for a while, then Mae disappeared into her bedroom.  After the appropriate amount of time had passed, she came out with a ponytail right above her forehead and claimed she was a unicorn.  She trotted around the room until I couldn't help but laugh.  She said, "I knew that'd make you laugh, because everybody at school laughed when I did it at Reading."  I shuddered at the thought of her running around her classroom, acting like a crazy unicorn and I couldn't help but ask, "Oh, Mae, please tell me that at least your teacher didn't see you?"  She replied, "Yeah...she thought it was hilarious!"  So it looks like the clown of the third grade class resides in my very own home. 

Next, Mae brought me a sketch book and a pencil and told me to draw her a picture.  So we drew together, then colored, then began her next sewing project.  When Kenny got home, we pigged out on tacos and watched a movie that sent us all to sleep.  Kenny and I were both awakened multiple times in the night by the thunder, but as usual, Kyler and Mae slept right on through it.   

Today, I'm feeling much better, though I see that the weather didn't follow my lead.  I suppose it's a good day to read a book.  Or rearrange the house.  I kind of want to move everybody's rooms around just to see what they say when they get home.  I'm not sure that I'm feeling quite that adventurous today, but I'm definitely gonna let that sit in the back of my mind for a good while.